Cutting Addiction?

[darkness-]

i was just wondering if it's possible to get addicted to cutting... cuz i feel like i am

[anonymous123]

yes i think its possible, i had plenty of friends who use to cut and it took them years to stop, and it was hard i use to be the one they called when they had an urge to cut i know it can be difficult to stop especially cold turkey , maybe you can get help talk to a professional seek therapy some free clinics offer for free, i wish you good luck

[darkness-]

thanks for the reply =]
i think i wanna stop...but at the same time i like cutting in a way

[anonymous123]

welcome, i understand ,and i know it turns into a habit,but its an unhealthy way to deal with things, then theres other concerns like infections or nerve damage, just try to take care of yourself i hope it all works out and even then you should still try to see a therapist its good to talk to someone who understands and wont judge and can help you , you know. good luck

[darkness-]

i dont always cut out of habit. when i'm angry i cut because i like to destroy things, when i'm sad because i'm unable to cry, and sometimes when i'm afraid that the next day will end up horrible i cut to make sure the day will be okay. for a while i really believed that if i cut the evening before that the next day nothing bad would happen. sometimes i'm happy and i cut just to remind myself that the happiness won't stay. sometimes i cut for the pain, i make sure i cut slow and shallow, and other times i just want to see blood, so i cut in a way i dont feel much pain. and sometimes i just think why not? and cut. sometimes it's because i like scars or because i feel good that there is something i can do that no one knows about and no one will ever see.
only rarely does it feel like a real addiction, where i feel like cutting is the only thing that will keep me under control. i feel like screaming, i can't stand still, i'm not sure if i'm shaking or it's just imagination and there is no way i can sleep so i cut and after a few minutes i'm sleeping soundly. and sometimes i keep telling myself i'm not okay and to prove that i cut. sometimes it just make me feel worse...but i still like it.
lately it's more of a 'you didn't cut for a long time, so why not?' two days seems like a long time without cutting.

[anonymous123]

well i still suggest therapy its just good to try it maybe learn new strategies on dealing with things, you should be proud of not cutting it does sound like an addiction and the dependency on it sucks, i wish you good luck.

[darkness-]

the point is, there isnt really a way to get therapy. i cant tell my parents or anyone at school so...

[anonymous123]

why not? those are the people who care about you, and you can always talk to the counselor at school see if they can help, theres nothing wrong with reaching out for help.

[darkness-]

my parents have gone through so much and they never stopped fighting and they've gotten real far. my father lost his parents with 14/16, then both of them went through a war and fled to germany, they didn't know the language at all but my father got a job soon and they were on their feet again, then we moved to the US and again they didn't know the language and had to start from 0 (except that my father did have a job) but again they stood tall and then we moved back to germany and we had a few things to fight with, now my mother's also looking for a job but they don't accept her degree here and both of their healths aren't that good and my sister is having problems with her stomach, i don't think there's room for this right now. plus, my father just got a few awards for his movie and is having a premier next month and our dog got puppies so there's that to take care of too.
i've tried writing them a short note once cuz i am in danger of failing the class just i didnt say i was cutting, i wrote i was depressed but they thought i feel like this because of school so they told me that they're glad i told them how i feel and that i shouldnt call it depression because it's not, that everyone doesn't feel like getting up out of bed a few times a year and that i'm intelligent enough to do this.
and i'm not good at talking to people, especially people that aren't my age. and teachers... teachers are horrible, i just can't seem to talk to them, even during class.

[MissTessTheMess]

Of course! You can be addicted to anything...
And since cutting eases anxiety it´s VERY addictional.
I used to cut myself befor but I did´nt like the scaring so I found another way of relese.
I met a guy who was in to hard spanking. At first it was wiered but it did´nt take long for me to realize it worked just as good as cutting did.
Try it sometime!

[anonymous123]

oh i understand, i guess just be careful and when things get better please talk to your family or if you feel its getting out of hand, take care and there are techniques you can research about such as snapping a rubber band on your wrist when you feel the need to cut, i wish you good luck,be careful.

[darkness-]

thanks for the help people =]
i hurt myself in other ways too, but it just seems different. when i cut, i see blood and a scar remains, making it a visible reminder, proof that i did hurt myself. it doesn't hurt other than when i cut though so i cut often and usually more than one cut... i've heard of a butterfly project, where you draw a colorful butterfly on the place you wanted to cut instaed of cutting. i someties do write on my arm instead of cutting, but everyone pesters me about it and asks what i wrote and i cant let them read cuz its some dark stuff or lyrics that they dont know about.

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