drinking, but less, but......

[Taylor]

so i'm still drinking. i would go to rehab if:
1. i wouldn't lose my job.
2. i had more serious "negative consequences" - so far the most serious one is my psychiatrist frowning, which actually hurts.
3. i wouldn't have to have a roommate.

i would go to AA meetings if:
1. i didn't know half the people there from work.
2. it didn't involve contact with a married man who had been pursuing me.

i don't know what i'm looking for, exactly. i can't afford treatment, and i know "anonymous" is a total joke.

my shrink and i tried me on naltrexone, which didn't help. he also thought it would help with the cutting, but it didn't. my next step is Antabuse, i guess, but with the Cymbalta i'm on now i don't think i can afford anything else.

sorry. this seems to be a dead end.....

[lisamarie]

Hi, I am wondering if there are multiple AA groups where you live. Here, there so are many that it isn't possible for anyone to run into other people they know. And also, I think maybe you could think of it this way also....if you run into other people from work or other places, they have the same problem as you do and there is no shame in that and even a possible connection where there is more support from people you already know. As far as losing your job, I don't know where you are from, but there are laws in the US that an employer cannot fire you under taking a leave or time off for treatment if you file papers covering this with the company to protect yourself....also when you file these papers that a doctor has to state that you have a serious or chronic or even temporary, but serious illness, they cannot ask the doctor what your medical condition is or what you are being treated for. They are only allowed to require a doctor's signature and his/her statement that you have an illness needing time off. I would check into this if I were you. Please do not give up hope. There are ways you can get help and keep looking. Give some of these things a chance. And there are serious consequences that have not hit you yet apparently...liver damage, damage to your other organs, and death. The inability to drive...I hope you are not doing that already when you are drinking....depression since alcohol is a depressant, drinking and not facing what is making you drink to medicate those feelings, and isolating yourself so much and telling yourself only negative things and letting the illness lie to you and not allow you to take the steps to make it better. And when your psych doc frowns and it upsets you, use that to try to move forward in any way to get yourself some help with groups or whatever. I know that things do get expensive as far as meds go, but some places do offer meds at a cheaper price and also, if you compare the cost of meds compared to the cost of the healthcare you'll need if you continue drinking, the cost of meds will be nothing compared to what you are looking forward to continuing drinking. I hope that you will make the moves you need to make to recover. What you have listed is lies the illness tells you why you cannot get help or help yourself. Fight those lies with all you have. Your life is worth it and it will be a better life if you take the steps you need to. I used to drink alot also. I realized that I was doing more harm to myself than good and was keeping myself from moving forward in any way. I was just drinking my problems away, but they got worse instead of better. So, I do understand where you are at. Hang in there and just try to take some small steps like the possible options you have and keep searching. And listen to you psych doc and use those frowns that upset you to make the effort.

[Kali]

I can't contribute any words of wisdom because I don't know too much about this.
However you seem to be taking steps to resolve the problem, which is great.
I want to wish you well and hope you overcome your problem successfully

[eeyore]

i dont know if this helps you but i have always said i would give up drinking but............ and i had a list of excuses. I am not an alcoholic but i do have a drink problem. One day 68days ago i woke up and said no more and i have been on the wagon ever since. What i am trying to say is instead of thinking of reasons to NOT quit drinking, i found the one really good reason to quit drinking.... ME

[Abbott]

Hi all,
the drinking is good thing for health or bad???
please share your comments guys,
thanks!!!