Closet Pill Popper

[ABACABB]

Ok well im a pill popper. I find the act of taking pills the greatest feeling in the world, besides sexual encounters of course, but sometimes the pills can increase that too... I digress. I love that I can take a little white/blue/pink thing and it'll more or less make me feel great for the next few hours. I started on hydrocodone and codeine and i eventually found ways to take more and more with less danger of OD'ing. It's called cold water extracting, who ever thought it was a pure genius. Anyways, im not telling you how to do it because I don't like that I do it so why spread the knowledge around? Furthermore I graduated from the opiates to benzos. I have a prescription for Lorazepam due to my frequent panic attacks but for the most part I just abuse it so I can feel great and then forget. I love that I forget stuff when I take them. Anyone have any ideas on how I can control this because I really don't want my room mates to find me OD'd in my room one day

[Christy]

I stopped abusing pills after I almost passed out at a party from them, I couldn't sit up straight in a chair or walk properly, my friends obviously knew something was up. I had taken over a week's worth of the antidepressant/anxiety med I was on at the time (don't ask what it was, this was 4-5 years ago). I was sick for four days after that, dry reaching everytime I ate and evil constipation. That was enough to put me off for a little while, until my friends gave me a talking to.

Anyway I suggest talking to someone, confide in a friend, give up any stash you have and get help. I wish I had started to talk to a professional about it earlier, I just ended up swapping pills for pot, then pot for alcohol. I still have some issues with alcohol but I'm working on it.

I dunno, someone else probably has some better advice, I haven't had much sleep.