Hi people,

My life's been a ride definitely. I've known I had ADD all my life but it never affected me until college. My entire family is either ADD or Bipolar, but when I asked if I could be bipolar, I got yelled at.

turns out I am, I have BOTH, and no one did a damn thing about it. So what am I going to do? I'm going to say **** them. I don't need them. I know what is wrong, and now I can fix it. I'm putting my foot down and not answering their calls unless I feel like dealing with them. My door is locked and I DO NOT have to communicate with them.

I've healed a lot since getting diagnosed, going to therapy, and getting some meds. My psych doesn't think there is anything wrong with me besides I binge eat (horray for my self esteem) but my therapist sees two mental disorders that need to be dealt with. I'm in the middle of changing psychs cause I hate mine and he won't give me mood stablizers just anti-depressants for the binge eating (his idea not mine), so I still want to kill... I'm just happy about it .

My biggest issue right now is getting unemployment. My last employer is fighting me tooth and nail to not give up my benefits and now I have to go to a formal hearing for them. I really don't want to see this woman because she's very controlling and has that aura about her. Her husband is terrified of her and no one there likes her. During the phone hearing, she said "hi" to me out of the blue.

But yeah that's a whole other story. Pray I get those benefits because right now it's the thing that is making me want to do nothing and not really live (not threatening suicide, just want to sleep a lot.)

I went through the suicide thing and though I still get the urge I have two rescues that depend on me and a husband who loves me, so I live for them.