Ashes

I'm having a bad night. Following in last nights foot steps I guess. Feeling very anxious and cant get to sleep. I'm taking 8 pills a night, 8 pills, that is so ridiculous. If things where improving, fine give me all the pills I need but things aren't getting better and so, lets add another pill. I'm depressed and so fed up that I feel like I don't even want to try anymore.