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Yesterday.. ..... all my troubles were so far away.. I had made a decision to be nice and happy and all the stuff I'm not usually able to be.. I don;t know why, so don't ask. ...... It worked.. for yesterday.. Today.. want to drink.. did that... did not smoke... good for me. had some "quality time" with the family and nearly got into a crappy attitude place. Thank goodness the meds are kicking in... Just so much less effort to get through the day..
I'm joing the "arty" ...

I'm only just getting to a place where I have a little.. very little..balance. I have a longing to be held and loved but I know when I get home I'm gonna be miserable me and that I won't be able to receive any of what I so want. I am going to take a couple more steps today in the hope that I can cross one of the obstacles and get my relationship with my husband on some kind of track. I am going to stop being angry because he won't accept that I have a problem. I am going to try not to drink to much. ...