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I think that I'm getting better, but I still find I am unable to convince myself there is any reason for getting out of bed before 11 if I have nothing on (work etc.). No matter what time I go to bed. It leaves me feeling wonky the whole day. Stupid oversleeping. I end up feeling lazy and lethargic and useless because I don't have the willpower to pull myself up out of bed. Bleh.

Chun leaves for Thailand this evening. I have no car so I can't get myself to the airport to say goodbye.

Life is rolling along pretty well. Got Centrelink all sorted last week so I don't have to worry about having no money, and I'm getting a few shifts a week with YMCA ASC (after school care). Things with Chun are going really well which is such a relief because all my other relationships have been total bombs within the first few months.

At the moment what is mostly ...

Cut my own hair again. I do it every so often when I'm really bored/depressed/needing a change. This time I hacked off most of the back and left the front as is. Would be fine except of course I can't see the back of my head and I took photos and ARGH. It's a mess. I am however excited to get it fixed up because from the side it looks mega cool. In my opinion.

Cutting my hair doesn't always work out great to begin with but often makes me feel better, or at least different, and sometimes ...

Already got some good thoughts going as to how to make things work with my partner, and surprise surprise he was the one who gave me the best advice. We're both members of Help.com and he invited a whole lot of people he knows to respond to my post saying "How do you handle being with someone who is so often stuck in their head sorting through issues from their past?" Alot of it was just bullcrap but I got some very helpful stuff in there too.

He said:

"Got ...

I kinda knew I'd hit this point but I guess I just wanted too badly not to have to think about it that it was a bit of a surprise.

I love my partner. Part of the reason that I love him is because he shares many of the same struggles as me. We've both dealt on and off with depression for years. He's very good at understanding when I hit lows for no reason. It's reassuring to be with someone who doesn't think I'm just crazy.

But at the same time I'm struggling to deal ...