Maggie

In a much better mood last couple of days! probably got A LOT to do with being on HOLIDAY for next 2 weeks whoop whoop!! monster term is finally over and can relax, well for the weekend at least before attempting to write 4 assignments! oops! enjoyed last few days at work too and got 3 displays up that am actually really really happy with - will take pics maybe... anyways, feeling brave enough to put some more of my poetry up, wrote the revisted ones a couple of weeks ago now...


Hidden was written actually in one of my integrative arts therapy sessions the day before we went on a group outing to the seaside - i felt torn, i love the sea but felt i couldn't be free and play in the sea as covered in self-harming scars - if i remember rightly i was distressed and totally consumed by the idea i would be stated at and judged (I am covered in scars but never had them on show to anyone, inc myself!)

Hidden (1)

I forever keep you hidden,

From the world,

From myself.

You’ve helped me and comforted,

In times of despair,

But the marks you forever leave,

Act as a fierce reminder.

I hide you for fear of being judged,

Stared at, bullied,

But none of them know how deeply ashamed I am,

Of each and every one.

How much I HATE myself both inside and out,

For doing this to myself,

And above all,

Those around me.

So I’ll keep you forever hidden,

Morning, noon and night,

But still under the layers,

I know you will still be there.

Hidden revisited (2)

You remain forever hidden,

From the world, but no longer from myself.


You have helped me and comforted me in times of despair,

But the marks you forever leave, act as a reminder of how far I have come.


I am now content with myself inside and out,

Holding no grudge or guilt for what I have done.


Although I’ll keep you forever hidden morning, noon and night,

You are no longer feared.


No fear of being judged, stared at, bullied,

No longer ashamed of each and every one.


For each and everyone one has a story,

A meaning, a reason which will never fade.


The emotion has now gone,

The respect and pride now remains.


Pride in my life, the journey these paint,

Of the changes I have made, and what I have achieved.

I hope this one shows that although still keep scars hidden, i have found acceptance in them and don't hate them and am no longer ashamed of myself for doing this to myself.