TJS

Recently I have been very sick, physically. I have had some kind of bug for over a week now. It all began the week-end before last. It had rained that week-end and I went to bed Sunday night around 11:30pm. I left a window open since the cool air was a nice change. It can get very stuffy in the RV that I have the misfortune of occupying (sometimes i feel that this infernal place will be the place I die, but perhaps I will save that for another discussion). I have slept with the window open before

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For the last couple of months (maybe more, my memory is so cloudy sometimes) I haven't been able to connect since the guy I share the wi-fi with decided to be a prick. I guess he has been mad at me for paying him late with my part of the wi-fi bill. My roommate (we can call him Joshua, since that is his name) pays the bill ahead of time and I reimburse him with my part which is usually 29 dollars or so.

It all started when I was having trouble getting the signal so I pointed the antenna

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Presently, I am living in an RV that is parked in my landlord's driveway. I use the bathroom in the main house. My landlord is a 72 year old Jewish woman who is slightly off. I really try to like her yet her way of doing things just doesn't make sense to me. She tends to have the attitude that she just doesn't care about her tenants needs, well, at least my needs. I've heard her lecture how she "grew up in Isreal and had to deal with bombs blowing up around her".

With all

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I remember back in the early 1990's I was attending Caldwell College in New Jersey, recently having changed my major a few times. I originally started college with an interest in Communications but Caldwell didn't have Communications as a major so I chose Sociology with a certificate in Communications. The choice of Sociology eventually became English as my major (with the certificate in Communications) then I became a Business major dropping the Communications altogether. After Business didn't

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I used to live in New Jersey (where I grew up) but have since moved to California. I enjoy working with computers and pretty much all of what I know about them, is self taught. I never was able to finish college after I completed high school.

High school was rough. It wasn't rough because it was in a bad part of New Jersey. On the contrary, it was in a typical suburban area. What made high school rather challenging was because a bunch of other kids attending school didn't seem to like

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I tend to lose interest in things and move on to something else. Usually I start a project and then fail to finish it, which apparently has been a pattern my whole life. The amazing part, and what I fail to understand, is that I was under the care of a therapist and psychiatrist. I was on an anti-depressant (I can't remember which one I was on exactly, but during the course of my life I have been on all of them from A to Zoloft). I would tell them how I feel and how I was doing. My therapist and

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I wish I had something more uplifting to blog about, for the sake of others, but I feel that I have to be honest (or as honest as possible) when blogging. I recently had to drop out of school and as far as long term goals go (and heck, as far as ANY goals go whatsoever) I would have to say I don't have any.

To be honest, (there's that honesty I mentioned earlier) I have been contemplating suicide but what else is new. I contemplate suicide practically everyday, on average. I have been

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