Ramblings

Life has a funny way of testing how well you can handle stress. Me...not so well.

As I type this I'm trying my hardest just to keep my mind and body together, on Monday I heard the most terrible news. One of my closest friends has been charged with the murder of a girl I know, it was assisted suicide and my close friend was meant to kill himself after the fact, fortunately he did not and was taken in before he could.

I don't hate my friend, I know the full story of what happened and feel sorry for them both more than anything, the couple had isolated themself when they were in clear need of help due to their severe depression. Now at least my friend can get the help he so desperately needs, though at what cost.

How am I meant to feel at this time? It's as if someone is very slowly tearing my heart apart. This week past has just been a mess of emotional breakdowns and heavy alcohol abuse.