Ramblings

Well I know I haven't been posting as regularly as I had hoped but for various reasons I haven't been able to until now.

Lately things have been starting to get a lot harder to deal with, I've been taking the medication Topamax to stop my hunger side effects from the Seroquel and ever since that started I've been steadily getting more and more depressed. Don't worry, I've nearly completely got the Topamax out of my system now, but things are probably at an even worse state.

I try to tell myself that the chemicals in my head are just messed up again and I just gotta wait this one out but dammit it's getting hard. The ability to sleep is almost completely failing me even though I'm incredibly exhausted nearly 100% of the time. Anhedonia sets in...couldn't be fucked even finishing what I've started in regards to writing this blog...oh well I'll push on.

Nah fuck it I won't...Typing is taking an incredible effort....

I think I'll go lay down on the couch and watch some more TV