no one understands..

[rlaxluver12s@live.com]

For a couple of months now i have been feeling really down, especially when my boyfriend broke up with me. i usually play lacrosse to make myself relieve stress because it makes me forget about stuff, but its gotten much worse recently. a couple of days ago i sprained my ankle really badly and now i have to wear an air cast and now im not doing anything except for sitting at home or going to school since i cant walk much. i told my parents that im always sad, and i always try to isolate myself because i always think to myself that i dont need friends because i cant trust anyone but they just think im pretending and dont believe me. i have a couple of friends at school who i am always with and i always pretend to be happy with them and smile and laugh but i actually dont feel happy, i just do it so that they dont question me. its been getting worse recently because now i have this feeling of sadness all the time, and i always expect the worse to happen. i dont know what to do since my parents dont think im depressed because im usually calm and dont talk much anyways cuz that is my personality.what should i do?

[dreamland]

Hey, I’m not really very good at reply’s but I’m going to try. This reminds me somewhat of myself when I was a teenager. Even to this day I pretend to be happy. And from experience, my advice to you would be to talk to someone. It’s a really hard thing to do, especially when you don’t want people to see that side of you. But what you should thing about is that other people feel down too, mostly likely not that same way as you, but they still might be able to relate. I’d also say that, perhaps, in your case, you might feel more comfortable talking to someone that does not know you? Do you have a person you can talk to in confidence in your school, a school councillor? Or if you don’t like the sound of that, you can speak to your doctor and he/she can refer to you a councillor outside of school. It really can help, when someone listens, does not judge, and above all BELIEVES you. I sometimes think that the people who are not comfortable with showing our “weakness” or struggles have it really quite hard, because we don’t put all the cards on the table and therefore people don’t see what’s happening. I hope that this helps, and keep us posted on how things go and what you decide to do.

Much love
dreamland

[rlaxluver12s@live.com]

yeah it is a horrible feeling to be sad all the time and not having anyone notice, or care if they do. i also think i have the worst luck too because i recently sprained my ankle and no matter how hard i study i always get bad grades so i just stopped caring about school work now too, and i think i will talk to my school counselor about this since we already know each other pretty well