Hello everyone, this is the first time I have ever used a site like this so you'll have to bear with me.

I've suffered from depression for as long as I can remember, but was diagnosed this clinical depression 7 years ago and put on sertraline. which I am still on. The last few years have not been too good. I.ve looked after both my elderly parents for the last ten years, 3 years ago my Dad died which just left me and mum, my mum was disabled and needed a bit of looking after which I didn't mined doing (I'm single with no kids so had the time) although I do feel that I gave up a lot of life doing so. which I now feel guilty about. In the last year, my mum had a very large stroke and died 16 weeks later, while this was going on a met a guy who also had huge problems (not to mentioned aleaved me of alot of money) whom I have now split up with. I have had to sale the family home and have just been made redundent, I tell you, you can't make this stuff up.

So that just leaves me and my two cats - living in a one bed flat which need alot of work doing to it.

Coming home every night to an almost empty house is sole destroying, I feel very angry with my ex -I miss my mum more than I thorought I would as she used to drive me mad. And I'm ashamed to say that I longed for my freedom to do as I wanted and now I.ve got it.......well let just say that its not so good. I would give anything for a replay, I've read some of the other comments on this site and I do understand the need to get into your car or whatever and just go. but trust me you just take your c...p with you where ever you go. If there is anyone out there who can understand why you come home each night and get out of your face on drink and painkillers just so you can sleep for more than a few hours I would love to hear from you.