I feel like nothing in this world is what it appears to be, I find myself questioning the fundamental existence of all things, from my friends, to my body, to anything that i can interact with, every time i close my eyes I see a fractal image of the universe, and even though I know it sounds insane, I am honestly starting to believe that I am a tiny part of a larger organism. and by tiny i mean our universe is smaller then an atom, and that organism is myself. I prowl the internet and books for some kind of a clue, or answer that I never seem to find, which should tell me I am wrong right? So why do I feel that I am no wrong? I start to ask myself about death, is it a gateway to becoming this larger organism? my life is starting to feel pointless and directionless. And all that is starting to matter to me is finding the truth about my existence. does this happen to anyone else? what should i do?