can someone tell me what is happening to me?

[Shadyhaze2011]

I feel like nothing in this world is what it appears to be, I find myself questioning the fundamental existence of all things, from my friends, to my body, to anything that i can interact with, every time i close my eyes I see a fractal image of the universe, and even though I know it sounds insane, I am honestly starting to believe that I am a tiny part of a larger organism. and by tiny i mean our universe is smaller then an atom, and that organism is myself. I prowl the internet and books for some kind of a clue, or answer that I never seem to find, which should tell me I am wrong right? So why do I feel that I am no wrong? I start to ask myself about death, is it a gateway to becoming this larger organism? my life is starting to feel pointless and directionless. And all that is starting to matter to me is finding the truth about my existence. does this happen to anyone else? what should i do?

[anonymous123]

I feel questioning things is great, you can write your ideas down , create theories let it out, your life is not pointless nor directionless, keep living try to enjoy life you can pursue the existence thing but dont let it consume you ,organize your thoughts make time for writing it all down and make time for thinking about it. if it really bothers you ,you can see a professional, i wish you the best of luck.

[UncomfortablyNumb]

I think we all question our existence in some form or another, but I guess you would have to ask yourself, does this new quest for knowlege that you are on, is it consuming you? to the point that is all you can think of, talk about or do? If so, that could be a symptom of mania, which is associated with bipolar I or II. Otherwise, "everything in moderation" is a good rule of thumb i found to follow. It could be you are having some sort of spiritual awakening which is raising your interest level. I guess you would have to step back and figure out how long this has been going on and how much time you are devoting to it. Hope this helps. As for feeling pointless and directionless - i feel you there - this is what I am battling now too.