Is it too much to ask for a friend?

[lonelymum2four]

I am 29 and was diagnosed about 4 years ago with anxiety and depression. I feel so alone, I've been married 7 yrs have 4 beautiful children. Yet I feel alone? I know weird. I have have no life beyond my residence, my kids and what my husband chooses for us to do. My parents moved out of state a year ago. The home I rent is now in foreclosure and being sold at auction in 2 weeks I'll be homeless. I have no friends, no job and my vehicle has been broken down for the past 4 months and the kids are all 4 in school full time now. I just want to sleep, but I lie awake crying the entire time. Why can't I be as loved as I was? Why is life just shooting down my every accomplishment? My heart aches in pain on a daily basis I just wish I could be active, independant, strong, but the pain and emptiness takes over. I pretend to be happy for my children but I cant anymore this beast is taking me over and I cant be someone Im not. I caught my 31 yr old husband "talking" to a 17 yr old saying he needs a change, Im obviously no good. Im ready to give up so my children can lead a normal life not with some freak mom who is a nobody.

[oneheavyheart]

Everybody is somebody. You are one unique individual and there is not one person like you in the whole universe. Never has been, never will be. I understand about the aching and I am sorry I cannot think of anything to say that can help with that (I am aching too.) But what I said I believe is true.