My opinion...for what it's worth.

[Blue-Star]

I've only been officially diagnosed with depression recently. It's hereditary on my Mother's side of the family and she also suffers greatly. I suffered as a child and a teen but it was assumed to be a facet of my personality. I've been on medication for a month and am attending councilling etc. Not a self harmer. One suicide attempt.

Like so many on the forum, trying to describe exactly what you're going through is like trying to describe the colour blue. You know it, you can see it in your mind but try explaining it to someone who has never seen it and you're going to fail miserably. I'm going to try my best to describe what depression is for me.

It's something that's always present but fluctuates sporadically. I can go for months or even a year feeling relatively neutral and then slip into a horrific episode.

It's a constant feeling of melancholy, despite good news or events.
It's a lack of passion in anything at all. I can't help but think constantly about the pointlessness of any endeavour, any acheivment. I can't concentrate on anything and I find my mind wondering.

It's a constant worrying, about anything I can find to worry about. It's expecting the worst of every situation. It's paranoia and hyper-analysing everything everyone says. It's genuinely believing that no one loves you.

It's physical too, a swelling pressure inside your chest till you think you'll explode. It's uncontrollable sobbing and panic attacks. It's terrible headaches, dizziness and fainting. Not being able to sleep, not being able to eat.

Above all else, it's looking at your life as it is, as it was and as it will be and finding it so unbearable that the only solution seems to end it.

[richa]

Hi
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[Zybata]

Hi
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