Feeling lonely and helpless

[eve]

I am already 21 years old, but i yet to get myself a partner. Since young, i was the only one in the family that will not be complimented as a pretty child. My sister is a beauty, my brother is a hunk, so what am i? Whenever my mother questioned the person who is giving compliments to my siblings about me, i frowned. Why did i frown? Because my mum was making me feel worst, and the person will definitely said i am cute, in a forceful manner. Although at that time i was young, i know how to judge via expression. I felt lousy, wanting to improve myself, hoping more people will notice me. When i becomes a teenager, i did not think much about relationship. I only want to be with the guy i fond of, other than that, i would not accept. Strangely enough, at that point of time, quite a number of guys woo me when i was working part-time.But i rejected all of time partially because they are stranger, and also i was not ready to get into a relationship. I will feel shy when guys were around me, and naturally i will avoid eye contact or stay away. I always told myself i don't need a boyfriend yet, with a lame excuse like i am currently studying or what so ever.

Now that i have really regretted, my surrounding friends are mostly attached. Those singles out there are looking good. But how about me? Because of entering university, i becomes uglier. The amount of stress i had made me no mood to doll up to school, sleep on the train, study late night and camping at home. Worst still, i somehow cannot get along with guys even though right now i dun feel shy anymore. And i don't really go for social activities like meeting up stranger or gathering with my long lost classmates. But now that i am ready for love, no one want me. I began to feel demoralized and was wondering why i am so unpopular? Is there anything i need to improve on to get myself a partner?

[Vinkolt]

I can't think of much you would need to improve on, but you did mention that you sometimes feel shy when guys are around you, and that you will avoid eye contact, you need to make yourself more open, make conversation with them, and eye contact is included in body language so make eye contact but don't stare for too long, look away every few seconds. Even if you weren't complimented as a pretty child, we all are what we are, There will always be someone out there for everyone who will love you for who you are, not how pretty you are. Best wishes to you from me..