Hurting a little

[Rachel]

I hurt today. I'm wanting to see my brothers very very much and it just hurts deeply tonight.

Watched a tv programme where a chef had to cook a three course meal for an aristrocratic family.The meal was celebrating the parents joint birthdays, all their grown up children were there. It reminded me of my family, especially my brothers.

I feel so sore in side and self-destructive. After the programme I went out for a long walk to try and ease my angst...it did ease a little. I did 2hrs on the bike earlier today so pretty tired anyway. Oh well, such is life.

[Caddy]

Sorry you're hurting. Glad you were able to do something as positive as walk some of it off, but I know it still hurts and I'm sorry

[Rachel]

Thank you so much.

Still feeling terribly defeated so going for a swim. It's like if I stop I'll just start screaming and screaming and screaming. So much bloody agony.

thinking of you too deepsleep and care very much about you too.

[Timothy]

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling so lonely at them moment
I take it your brothers live a long way away, would a visit be out of the question?
I know working yourself hard until your tired can make things easier but try not to over do it, you still need to stay healthy.
I hope things get better for you and remember that we are all here for you