The End Of My Rope

[Rope]

I've been hanging on to the end of my rope for so long. I'm so tired. Exhausted. Hating the person I've become. Everything boils up, I try to find my center only to have it boil back up again. I can't make any progress. Everything in my life needs me to but I'm stuck in this cycle and there seems to be no way out of it. Most of my relationships are dysfunctional for some reason or another that leaves me heartbroken. Our finances have gone from horrible to dire.

There are times that things get so awful and I feel like I'm going to lose control and get me. I try to be completely still, squeeze my eyes tightly closed and wait for it to pass. What if there is a time it doesn't?

Sorry for the vent. This had to go someplace other than just inside me.

[Dali]

It's okay, don't apologize for venting. That's what we're here for!! Do you have anyone close to you that you can talk to about how you feel?

[Timothy]

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling so down and that your currently in such a bad situation. I know it can be hard to have control over your body and emotions. I suffer from Social Anxiety Disorder and depression so i know how this feels. Being unable to control your emotion is a terrible feeling, there is nothing worse then losing control and feeling powerless to your emotions. When ever this happens to me, i take deep, deep breaths and focus on them, then i close my eyes and try to listen for 10 sounds. These techniques were given to me by a specialist and believe it or not they work. They help to take your mind off of the problem at hand. Having financial problems and medical problems at the same time can be very stressful and you have my complete sympathy.

What you need to do though is remain positive, set your self some goals that you are capable of achieving and try not to let life get to you. There are always options, you just need to wait it out and try your best to hang in there until things get better. Life fluctuates, you will always have ups and downs but you need to try your very hardest to wait for the ups to come back and trust me, the ups will eventually come.