There's no point

[PheonixBomb]

My entire life I've been shy, ever since I can remember. I've been diagnosed with OCD, depression and social anxiety. I've never progressed far socially, I'm almost 20 but feel like I'm 12. I over-think too much, and it depresses me quite a bit. Never had a girlfriend or been on a date, seems I missed out on my teen years completely. Used to ignore it all, lose myself in an activity, now its all I can think about. People have moved on, or moved away. Even people I talk to, they all seem to fade over time.

Feel used talking to this girl, like all the connection was just temporary while she was having problems with her boyfriend. I don't even want a relationship I just want friends I can trust. But it seems I can't trust anyone, people won't like what they see, circumstances change, people leave.

Seems my life has been some sort of cruel experiment, just to see how long I would last before falling into a deep dark hole...

I don't get any enjoyment from anything anymore...

[Timothy]

I'm sorry to hear that your having a rough time mate. I hope you don't mind that I'm 16 because i want to tell you that your not alone. These are very common circumstances that people who suffer from mental illness find themselves in and it can be very lonely. I myself and still a virgin when most people i know are not, i haven't had a relationship for 4 years and when i last did i was 12 so i to feel like i have missed out but only on relationships as a teenager. Relationships always come and go, they never last forever but eventually if you look really hard you will eventually find at least one person who will remain with you for most of your life. Your only 20, you still have a good 80 years ahead of you and you shouldn't feel as if you have left friendships and relationships too late. Some people don't find someone till they are in their later years, you just need to be patient and move at a pace that your comfortable with. The one thing that you should remember is that you should never give up no matter what because you never know how things might end up. Try to remain positive and remember that we are all here for you!

[Ashes]

"I don't get any enjoyment from anything anymore..."
My story may not be the same as yours but I feel that way a lot. The only real friends I had moved out of state about 5 years ago and we never talk anymore. I missed them at first but now I have gotten to a point that I dont want to be around anyone. I don't even answer my phone anymore. Hopefully opening up here will help you somehow. I hope you start feeling better soon.

[Tim1990]

I can see exactly where all you guys are coming from, im 20 in october, and life feels like a struggle, i cant keep a relationship, my last one was about a year and a half ago and my longest one was just over a month, and i find it hard to do anything or enjoy anything and im so scared at the moment that if i let people to close to me they will stop talking to me as most people stop talking to me when they find out about the depression and its good that you have opened up on here as its probably the only place you can get everything out with out people judging you, if you ever need to talk im probably one of many who are always here to listen and talk to.