Thread: Why get better??

I've been diagnosed with 'depression with mild anxiety', so now my Dad is sending me to psychologist and tried to convince me to take the meds. He's so fixed on getting me to talk out my problems and work past them. I really don't see the point. Why should I have to pay to talk to some stranger about all my problems?? They're my problems and no one else should have to deal with them. I don't even want to get better. It's hell here, but I know I can't dig myself out of this metaphoric hole. And what if I do get better and everything is going fine, then something triggers the depression again?? I'll have no walls and no defences. I can't go through the beginning again. Does anyone else feel this way, or do I just worry too much??

For me, my life is currently headed to a dead end; I fear I might take my life someday. I'd rather get better than do something I can't undo.